This book is going to be a major eyeopener to many readers, so today I thought I would give you a peek inside Jordan's head by posting the book's opening
excerpt.
February
25, 2013
When
I look back on my life, it is a miracle that I made it through all
that happened. It seems like a nightmare I've barely woken from. The
faces and places are still fresh in my mind, the shades and colors as
vivid as ever. The sights and smells come back at times, drawing my
thoughts back to days long gone, times never to be revisited.
I
have talked about my life before, but not in this much depth, and not
with my family. Friends are appalled by the events I have shared, and
other friends I have known for years wonder why I've never opened up
before this. My answer is always, “I never wanted pity because
there are so many others who have probably experienced worse things.”
There
have been many closet doors in my life that have hidden many things,
and I managed to walk through them all, struggling to leave the
painful experiences that lay behind them, experiences shrouded in
darkness, hidden from the eyes of those who would clearly see them
for what they were, and clearly see me for what I was.
To
this day, there are moments when the flashbacks that occur are so
strong, I literally lose control of my bodily functions. If I am
standing in the grocery store and see a small child angrily chastised
or hear a family yelling, or watch the news and a child has been
kidnapped, raped, or murdered, it takes me back to those dark days.
The shame and embarrassment I feel at these times is overwhelming. I
see a therapist regularly. I take prescribed anxiety medication
during the day and sleeping medication at night just to function. It
is the only way I can live some semblance of a normal life.
However,
one thing above all helps me through each new day. And that is my
knowledge that no matter how rough it gets or how abandoned I still
feel at times, God is there, the Savior is with me, and as long as I
hold to the light, I will never be alone again.
So
now everything is out in the open, never again to be shut away,
covered or hidden. There are no more secrets, no animosity or anger;
there is only the sweet peace of healing and knowing that the old
life of my memories is no longer mine, that those burdens are no
longer mine. Someone else carries them now.
And
I can go on.
A little about Out of the Closet Into the Light
After living a life of abuse, abandonment and homosexuality, Jordan
Jantz made the ultimate choice. Leaving his old life behind, Jordan came
to know and understand God's love for him, as well as discover his own
part in the eternal plan.
But this book isn't just about his Christian conversion and lifestyle change, it is
also about all the things he suffered that helped to bring him to this
point. It's about everything he was, everything he is, and everything he is on his way to becoming.
Simply put, this is the story of his journey from the painful, cold darkness into the light.
A portion of the proceeds from
Out of the Closet Into the Light will be donated to
The Christmas Box International to support abused and neglected children.
https://www.thechristmasboxhouse.org/wp/ 
After living a life of abuse,
abandonment and homosexuality, Jordan Jantz made the ultimate choice.
Leaving his old life behind, Jordan came to know and understand God's
love for him, as well as discover his own part in the eternal
plan.
